elliot eon

2009-12-15T14:48:00.000-08:00

this is the first day of my life, glad i didnt die before i met you.

2009-12-11T13:20:00.000-08:00

you can tell by my attitude

the mariners revenge

2009-12-10T16:06:00.000-08:00

We are two mariners
Our ships' sole survivors
In this belly of a whale

Its ribs our ceiling beams
Its guts our carpeting
I guess we have some time to kill

You may not remember me
I was a child of three
And you, a lad of eighteen

But I remember you
And I will relate to you
How our histories enweave

At the time you were
A rake and a roustabout
Spending all your money
On the whores and hounds

You had a charming air
All cheap and debonair
My widowed mother found so sweet

And so she took you in
Her sheets still warm with him
Now filled with filth and foul disease

As time wore on you proved
A debt-ridden drunken mess
Leaving my mother
A poor consumptive wretch

And then you disappeared
Your gambling arrears
The only thing you left behind

And then the magistrate
Reclaimed our small estate
And my poor mother lost her mind

Then one day in spring
My dear sweet mother died
But before she did
I took her hand as she, dying, cried:

"Find him, bind him
Tie him to a pole and break
His fingers to splinters
Drag him to a hole until he
Wakes up naked
Clawing at the ceiling
Of his grave
*sigh*"

It took me fifteen years
To swallow all my tears
Among the urchins in the street

Until a priory
Took pity and hired me
To keep their vestry nice and neat

But never once in the employ
Of these holy men
Did I ever once turn my mind
From the thought of revenge
Oh Ohhhhh

One night I overheard
The Prior exchanging words
With a penitent whaler from the sea

The captain of his ship
Who matched you toe to tip
Was known for wanton cruelty

The following day
I shipped to sea
With a privateer

And in the whistle
Of the wind
I could almost hear...
Oh Ohhhhh

"Find him, bind him
Tie him to a pole and break
His fingers to splinters
Drag him to a hole until he
Wakes up naked
Clawing at the ceiling
Of his grave

"There is one thing I must say to you
As you sail across the sea
Always, your mother will watch over you
As you avenge this wicked deed"

And then that fateful night
We had you in our sight
After twenty months at sea

Your starboard flank abeam
I was getting my muskets clean
When came this rumbling from beneath

The ocean shook
The sky went black
And the captain quailed

And before us grew
The angry jaws
Of a giant whale

Don't know how I survived
The crew all was chewed alive
I must have slipped between his teeth

But, O! What providence!
What divine intelligence!
That you should survive
As well as me

It gives my heart
Great joy
To see your eyes fill with fear

So lean in close
And I will whisper
The last words you'll hear
--the decemberists

2009-12-07T18:35:00.000-08:00

king of hearts

2009-12-07T18:17:00.000-08:00

and if it seemed like an accident
mistaken for false death
you havent learned such simple things as
the taste of your last breath
and the length it takes to make it
or stress that will become abandon

there is an innocence you cant protect
there is happiness in death
i know the cause, and i want to stop
but to pause will only hurt and turn
against you in the worst of ways

come on just do it, dont hesitate
put it in your mouth, there is only now
tomorrow has to wait
but no theres no backing out,
this is going to be, reality
you can never dream it down

hit the switch

2009-12-07T18:01:00.000-08:00

I start attacking my vodka, stab the ice with my straw
My eyes have turned red as stoplights, you seem ready to walk
You know I'll call you eventually, when I wanna talk
'Til then you're invisible.

'Cause theres a switch that gets hit and it all stops making sense
And in the middle of drinks, maybe the fifth or the sixth
I'm completely alone at a table of friends
I feel nothing for them. I feel nothing, nothing

Well, I need a break from the city again
I think I'll ship myself back west
I got a friend there, she says, "hey, any time."
Unless that offers expired, I have been less than frequent
she's under no obligation to indulge every whim
And I'm so ungrateful, I take, she gives and forgives
And I keep forgetting it

And each morning she wakes with a dream to describe
Something lovely that bloomed in her beautiful mind
I said "I'll trade you one for two nightmares of mine
I have some where I die, I have some where we all die."

I'm thinking of quitting drinking again
I know i said that a couple times
And I'm always changing my mind, well, i guess i am
But theres this burn in my stomach and theres this pain in my side
And when I kneel at the toilet
And the mornings clean light pours in through the window
Sometimes I pray I don't die
I'm a goddamn hypocrite

But the night rolls around and it all starts making sense
There is no right way or wrong way, you just have to live
And so I do what I do and at least I exist
What could mean more than this?
What would mean more?
-bright eyes

Hell Oh XO XO

2009-12-07T13:29:00.001-08:00

i always like the crazy girls, beautiful none the less, that walk around with twenty three suitcases even when theyre not on vacation. and for some reason, im okay with it, i can handle it

driving a winding road with my shoes untied

2009-12-03T21:12:00.001-08:00

driving a cherry red covertible thru the galaxy. you and me. aimlessly floating away from safety and every boring precaution they tried too hard to teach me as a kid. its taken me three years to wear these brakes out. now there is nothing left but to accelerate until it ends. if i forget what were doing this for, just whisper something sweet in my ear to calm me down. i dont trust you and i dont care. i want you to fuck the love from me. i want to shed some tears. these stars will almost last forever but i wont always be here.

2009-12-03T21:08:00.001-08:00

im tired of my friends telling me who my other friends should and shouldnt be. like its fucking blasphemy how much of an asshole i can be. why are you so surprised?

ive done it before.

i am the cause to all your problems

2009-12-03T21:07:00.001-08:00

at the bottom of everything is the bottom. thats it, you cant get any further. its the bottom.

2009-11-21T13:17:00.001-08:00

Soo, take off your makeup and pocket your pills away. Were kings among run-aways.

2009-11-21T09:27:00.001-08:00

Delicious breakfast looking like my decrepit brain. Eggs are scrambled and the toast is plain. Splash of syrup and the coffees cold. Stuck to this leather seat in the worst diner that this towns ever known.

2009-11-20T12:36:00.001-08:00

Working on making a living waiting for a coffin to wander my way. Wondering if the magic of withdrawing yourself from the world is worth the effort anyway. Its easier to tip toe through the fire than extinguish the flames with a flood and forget everything. So I slowly sit and wait patiently for tomorrow to become yesterday. Wish me luck as I continue on this journey. Love, the martyr

2009-11-19T17:28:00.001-08:00

Sometimes I act like shit doesn't phase me. But inside it drives me crazy. My insecurities can eat me alive.

2009-11-19T03:31:00.001-08:00

If I had one wish I wouldn't ask for my death. I would ask for your kiss to feel better than this. Loneliness and sorrow in the way I've chosen. I am completely silent as every word is being spoken. I am lonely. I am fragile. I am stubborn yet dismantled. You tried to break me. I wouldn't let you. Now were stuck pretending that its over. I might cry. I might die. However I will never swallow my own pride. I will walk. Watch me run. Trip and fall while having fun. Tie my show. Hold my hand. I hope that you see me again. Death is real. Life is short. My mind is full of broken thoughts. Full of pity. Lacking time. Stand up and break through. Fucking come fulfill my life...
Later is too late. Sometime later we will die.

2009-11-19T03:29:00.001-08:00

2009-11-19T03:12:00.001-08:00

Completely alone sitting at a table of friends.

2009-11-17T01:07:00.001-08:00

I watched the mtv special about twilight new moon. Edward and bella.

2009-11-16T20:45:00.001-08:00

I have one step in heaven and a devil on my shoulder. I've been to hell but an angel drove me home in my A4.

2009-11-16T16:15:00.001-08:00

The king of hearts has a nickname

2009-11-13T22:35:00.001-08:00

One fight will split things but one night will fix things

2009-11-13T20:15:00.001-08:00

Its sooo nice, don't want to hear the same song twice. Its soo nice, I want to hear the same song twice.. I'm funky, not a junky, but I know where to get it.

tonight tonight

2009-11-13T01:38:00.000-08:00

i feel alone
and unhappy as shit
im not trying to play these
games or forget you exist
i fucking want you, i crave you
im not every other guy that
wants to control you
i desire who you are
fucking love me back cause
i wont live forever
..its serious, serious as
ever, now is the time,
right now doesn't have to
be forever
if you dont want that
i will walk away
i have too much love to give
and will not forget all
ive forgiven. i am emotion
you can see me cry. you might
even see me die and i hope
you wont have to see me try.
i am all that i can be,
ive given you all thats within me
i wont continue to play this game.
im telling you now, i love you,
i love you, i love you, for i know what
my heart is capable of, i love you
and that may be the last time
before i run from you.
hack into my shit, ask me
your two hundred questions,
be fucking crazy cause ill probably
love you more for it. i want you
pure, i want you whole, i want you
to witness none of the misery thats
in store. this only took me three
minutes, to explain every minute
detail of my hearts capability.
ive been to europe, ive been to la,
ive been to miami and done cocaine.
ive been around the corner, ive
seen the world complain, my mom is
so fucking crazy i have that scar
on my head. you know who i am, you
knew what you got involved with
and all i want from you at this moment
is the comfort of you givin me one
last passionate kiss.
i could fuck you, i could love you,
i could fucking love you
or i could love the fuck from you
i want you to see, i want me to be
all of the person youve ever wanted me to be.
hold my hand, jump on my back, ill carry you
all the way to our house. just dont let
it be now, now is not the time,
your tears are only alibis
and tonight is time for us to love
uncondtionally, uncontrollably,
i am like nobody youve ever been around
you are the love of my life, tonight
and that is not something i can continue
to hide. where are you?. i call you,
i leave you alone, ill ignore you forever
because thats what you want. we need to grow up
and become those crazy adults that we've
never wanted to be, its no insult
when i say i love you, grow the fuck up
and show me respect. i want you
with roses, i want your whole name,
i want you to keep me forever
in your hand. i need your comfort,
crazy or pure, i want you to love me
every day of next year. i will take your hand
and write you every day,
just love me back
when i show you the same
dont treat me with disrespect
because you knew i was in love
from the begininng and some things
never change. sigh

2009-11-13T00:48:00.001-08:00

Learning a lot about living, and a little about love. Love is a battlefield. Haha.

2009-11-12T23:17:00.001-08:00

If I sat here forever waiting for the same love I'd never feel happy with the only life that ill eventually die from